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Tank-Girl said:
Please pray for me..

I'm seeing the Radiation Oncologist at midday today and handing over my insurance application.

I'm trying to be calm and philosophical about the possible outcome considering what is happening in the world atm..
and THAT is what is giving me sweatly palms about it.

Still the LORD's will be done.
Put the outcome into his hands and resist the temptation to snatch it back and tinker.

Lord Almighty I know you are in this situation and you already know the outcome.
Please grant me peace during this process knowing I am kept in the shadow of your wings
and I'm the apple of your eye.

Amen.
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Sending prayers heavenwards with your name on them!
 
I just got back from the specialist and he signed the insurance papers.

To see it officially written down, on paper..and official professional document that I have 6 to 12 months to live ripped the legs out from under me.

I sat in the car and had a good long, uggly, messy bawl.

Now I pick myself up and hand it back to God Almighty and continue to stand strong in his word.

I go and see the GP next week and get her to sign off on as the second expert witness for my insurance.

Today has been an ordeal.
 
Tank-Girl said:
I just got back from the specialist and he signed the insurance papers.

To see it officially written down, on paper..and official professional document that I have 6 to 12 months to live ripped the legs out from under me.

I sat in the car and had a good long, uggly, messy bawl.

Now I pick myself up and hand it back to God Almighty and continue to stand strong in his word.

I go and see the GP next week and get her to sign off on as the second expert witness for my insurance.

Today has been an ordeal.
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Tank, I can't imagine what an emotional churn your heart is. Do know there is peace for you. You don't have to worry. You are doing amazingly and everything you can. You already know God has a plan. He wants you happy and loves you. Whatever lies ahead, you are loved on both sides of the veil. 💕
 
I am praying SO HARD for you!! YES, God is still and always in control!! I feel your fear! I don't know how, but don't let fear have the upper hand!! The Devil owns fear!! God will and has blessed you!! I wish I could hold you in a big hug and reassure you can do this!! You are so far away, but right here in my heart! You are loved!!
 
Tank-Girl said:
I just got back from the specialist and he signed the insurance papers.

To see it officially written down, on paper..and official professional document that I have 6 to 12 months to live ripped the legs out from under me.

I sat in the car and had a good long, uggly, messy bawl.

Now I pick myself up and hand it back to God Almighty and continue to stand strong in his word.

I go and see the GP next week and get her to sign off on as the second expert witness for my insurance.

Today has been an ordeal.
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just because it was wrote down doesnt make it so. they are not YHWH ! they dont know for sure...! friends had family member told to go home and die..months left...they did die..30 some years later !! live it to the hilt !
 
Tank-Girl said:
I just got back from the specialist and he signed the insurance papers.

To see it officially written down, on paper..and official professional document that I have 6 to 12 months to live ripped the legs out from under me.

I sat in the car and had a good long, uggly, messy bawl.

Now I pick myself up and hand it back to God Almighty and continue to stand strong in his word.

I go and see the GP next week and get her to sign off on as the second expert witness for my insurance.

Today has been an ordeal.
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Keep in mind that 6-12 months would be if you were only using conventional treatments... That's not the case for you, because you are smart enough to figure out alternatives that will kick that parasite's behind, and because you have faith enough to receive the miracle God will bless you with. That's a winning combination in my opinion!
 
I wouldn't place any faith or belief in a medical document... that whole healthcare scene is SO screwed up, I wouldn't believe a word of any document like that. Frankly, every time I even THOUGHT of that document, I'd take a shot of wheatgrass juice... no lie, wheatgrass juice has been known to effectively fight cancer, since it's so powerful. Ann Wigmore wrote a book, THE HIPPOCRATES DIET, wherein she explains the curative powers of wheatgrass juice, and how it has actually helped folks defeat ugly illnesses. Just sayin', don't give up, and only drink fresh wheatgrass juice straight from the juicer, there are quack products out there slung by wanks trying to capitalize, aye? :confused:
 
Thank you all for your beautiful comments, kindness and support!

I guess seeing it finally in black and white was a bigger kick in the guts than I thought it was going to be.
I knew it was going to be rough...but holy crap!

It'll be better and the shock will be less when I go to the GP to get the paperwork from her.

I want to be 100% real and authentic with this community.

I'm NOT strong and gritty a 100% of the time.

Yes, I get frightened.
Yes I cry.
Yes, I have to pick myself up out of the dirt and dust myself off.

Will I give up?
NO WAY!

Not on my radar, never crossed my mind once.

I've got my Lord and Saviour and some of the strongest prayer warriors at my back.

I'm grateful.
 
Tank-Girl said:
Thank you all for your beautiful comments, kindness and support!

I guess seeing it finally in black and white was a bigger kick in the guts than I thought it was going to be.
I knew it was going to be rough...but holy crap!

It'll be better and the shock will be less when I go to the GP to get the paperwork from her.

I want to be 100% real and authentic with this community.

I'm NOT strong and gritty a 100% of the time.

Yes, I get frightened.
Yes I cry.
Yes, I have to pick myself up out of the dirt and dust myself off.

Will I give up?
NO WAY!

Not on my radar, never crossed my mind once.

I've got my Lord and Saviour and some of the strongest prayer warriors at my back.

I'm grateful.
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I started to type "it's all right to cry" and had a flashback to school in the 70's, where the album/movie "Free to be You and Me" got played a lot and this song came rushing back into my mind:


Nothing wrong with being afraid or crying, courage is picking yourself back up when you are done and pressing forward.
Prayers continue to be sent your way.
 
Tank-Girl said:
Thank you all for your beautiful comments, kindness and support!

I guess seeing it finally in black and white was a bigger kick in the guts than I thought it was going to be.
I knew it was going to be rough...but holy crap!

It'll be better and the shock will be less when I go to the GP to get the paperwork from her.

I want to be 100% real and authentic with this community.

I'm NOT strong and gritty a 100% of the time.

Yes, I get frightened.
Yes I cry.
Yes, I have to pick myself up out of the dirt and dust myself off.

Will I give up?
NO WAY!

Not on my radar, never crossed my mind once.

I've got my Lord and Saviour and some of the strongest prayer warriors at my back.

I'm grateful.
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we all do and are at times...!!

p.s. dont sell yourself short...you are doing it ! forward into the fray !
 
Tank-Girl said:
Thank you all for your beautiful comments, kindness and support!

I guess seeing it finally in black and white was a bigger kick in the guts than I thought it was going to be.
I knew it was going to be rough...but holy crap!

It'll be better and the shock will be less when I go to the GP to get the paperwork from her.

I want to be 100% real and authentic with this community.

I'm NOT strong and gritty a 100% of the time.

Yes, I get frightened.
Yes I cry.
Yes, I have to pick myself up out of the dirt and dust myself off.

Will I give up?
NO WAY!

Not on my radar, never crossed my mind once.

I've got my Lord and Saviour and some of the strongest prayer warriors at my back.

I'm grateful.
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Nobody is ever 100% all the time. We all get frightened, we all cry, but only a few are strong enough to dust themselves off and refuse to give up.

When you need too, lean on Him. God is good all the time
 
Tudca suppliment.

What is Tudca?

Tudca (Tauroursodeoxycholic Acid) is a water soluable bile salt.

It has been touted in the Alt Cancer Cure forums as the BEST sup to take to protect the liver from FenBen damage REGARDLESS of what cancer the person has been diagnosised with.

A fightened newbie comes onto the forum and the vast majority start parroting the same line about adding Tudca to protect their liver without even know what type of cancer they have in whatever organ.
No studies are presented.

I all most jumped on that bandwagon and stopped taking my mega dose Milk Thistle caps in favor of Tudca.

Thank goodness I didn't and I will show you WHY!
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC6888259/
"In conclusion, TUDCA induced autophagy of ACC SW-13 cells and inhibited apoptosis of ACC SW-13 cells after alleviating ER stress of ACC SW-13 cells. ER stress- and autophagy-related signaling pathways are involved in the occurrence of ACC, which may provide potential therapeutic targets for ACC treatment. There is a complex interplay between ER stress and autophagy in ACC. Therefore, an ER stress inducer such as thapsigargin will be used in in vitro and in vivo experiments with ACC in future studies."

AS I have stated in other posts Autophagy is when the cancer cells eat their own dead and use them as a energy source when glucose metabolism -Glycolisis, is shut down. Tuduca increases Autophagy.
IT shuts down Atopoptosis - programmed cell death.


Another study - https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S1665268119310476

Bile Salts has been shown to be either Protecting the organ from cancer or Promoting it Depending on the organ and the type of cancer.

Indeed it does seem that Tudca does have its benefits in a healthy body and it would seem that it does have liver cleansing actions.
Unfortunately it inhibits the vital anti-cancer actions such as atopoptosis and increased autophagy.

And yet, even when presented with these studies I was howled down and they and myself were removed from the forum.

I'll stick with the mega dose Milk Thistle thanks.
 
Tank-Girl said:
Tudca suppliment.

What is Tudca?

Tudca (Tauroursodeoxycholic Acid) is a water soluable bile salt.

It has been touted in the Alt Cancer Cure forums as the BEST sup to take to protect the liver from FenBen damage REGARDLESS of what cancer the person has been diagnosised with.

A fightened newbie comes onto the forum and the vast majority start parroting the same line about adding Tudca to protect their liver without even know what type of cancer they have in whatever organ.
No studies are presented.

I all most jumped on that bandwagon and stopped taking my mega dose Milk Thistle caps in favor of Tudca.

Thank goodness I didn't and I will show you WHY!
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC6888259/
"In conclusion, TUDCA induced autophagy of ACC SW-13 cells and inhibited apoptosis of ACC SW-13 cells after alleviating ER stress of ACC SW-13 cells. ER stress- and autophagy-related signaling pathways are involved in the occurrence of ACC, which may provide potential therapeutic targets for ACC treatment. There is a complex interplay between ER stress and autophagy in ACC. Therefore, an ER stress inducer such as thapsigargin will be used in in vitro and in vivo experiments with ACC in future studies."

AS I have stated in other posts Autophagy is when the cancer cells eat their own dead and use them as a energy source when glucose metabolism -Glycolisis, is shut down. Tuduca increases Autophagy.
IT shuts down Atopoptosis - programmed cell death.


Another study - https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S1665268119310476

Bile Salts has been shown to be either Protecting the organ from cancer or Promoting it Depending on the organ and the type of cancer.

Indeed it does seem that Tudca does have its benefits in a healthy body and it would seem that it does have liver cleansing actions.
Unfortunately it inhibits the vital anti-cancer actions such as atopoptosis and increased autophagy.

And yet, even when presented with these studies I was howled down and they and myself were removed from the forum.

I'll stick with the mega dose Milk Thistle thanks.
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Wow, definately a reason to always and thoroughly do your homework!!😮
 
Please pray for me today Please.

I'm goin to GP at approx 10am to get her to sign my insurance paperwork.
I have to go to the bank before I send off the paperwork to the insurance company because they want a bank statement to verify that the branch and account numbers are correct.
In my mad, crazy eyed shredding session I did with my brand new whizz bang paper shredder it seems I shredded ALL of my bank statements. *face palms*
That'll teach me...but..prob not!
 
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