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Caribou said:
Perhaps the tests were good enough that he isn't worried about you, so it slipped his mind. Besides, it gives us couple extra days to pray for you.
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Thank you Brother because, at the moment, I need prayer more than ever for my human nature.
I'm so furious and when I'm this furious I cry..and crying when I'm this furious makes me even angrier.
I HATE crying when I'm angry.
Stupid crying.
 
Tank-Girl said:
Thank you Brother because, at the moment, I need prayer more than ever for my human nature.
I'm so furious and when I'm this furious I cry..and crying when I'm this furious makes me even angrier.
I HATE crying when I'm angry.
Stupid crying.
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It is better to let it out than to hold onto all the stress and anger. You're doing great.
 
Tank-Girl said:
Satan is on the war path with me again.

The Oncologist was supposed to ring at 9.45 am yesterday.
Nothing....all damned day!
Waited until 4.00pm just before the clinic closed for the weekend to politely (and through grit teeth) ask when he was going to ring.
Apparently he had left early and he was already on a plane to go home for the weekend.
The receptionist had no idea why he didn't ring and said she was hopeful that he "might" ring me when he got home later in the evening.
NOPE.
So as it stands I have no damned clue when this turkey is going to ring me with my results.
These people don't work on weekends so I'm not putting any hope in a phone call over the weekend.

My human self is having a huge problem processing my anger over this.
I know I'm going to have to call on God to pour out his blessings upon this person
but it's extremely hard and my pride, ego, anger and hurt feelings are making it extremely difficult.

Pragmatically, lashing out at this jackass will solve nothing and get me nothing except give me a temporary feeling of justification and put salve on my outrage and also pragmatically, I jumped through so many hoops already to get this scan to baulk at this last hurdle out of anger and pride.

Bamboo doesn't break in hurricanes because it's flexible.
Tall trees break during hurricanes because they're rigid.
Neither the tree or the bamboo choose the hurricane if given the choice.
It's a devastating phenomenon that they can't escape and have to endure.

In this situation I've got the choice to be either mentally flexible or rigid.
Both mindsets have the same results as either the tall tree or the bamboo.

In this instance a bamboo mentality serves me better.
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What a test!! It is best to wait this one out, you have come too far not to do so! Hopefully guilt will haunt him! I will pray God will guide you through this and make your wait bearable!! Sometimes it's so hard to understand why things happen as they do!!♥️
 
Pearl said:
What a test!! It is best to wait this one out, you have come too far not to do so! Hopefully guilt will haunt him! I will pray God will guide you through this and make your wait bearable!! Sometimes it's so hard to understand why things happen as they do!!♥️
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Amen Sister.
This has really tarnished the goodwill I had towards him.
I had the results sent to the Oby Gyn registrar in my home town as well so if worse comes to worse
I need to go to my dopey GP again, pay another $90 to get a referral to see the Oby Gyn (hand hold the dope through the referral process) and then wait for notification for the Oby Gyn appointment so I can see the scans and the report.

This is plan B if the Oncologist and Satan decide to be an ass.
 
Tank-Girl said:
Amen Sister.
This has really tarnished the goodwill I had towards him.
I had the results sent to the Oby Gyn registrar in my home town as well so if worse comes to worse
I need to go to my dopey GP again, pay another $90 to get a referral to see the Oby Gyn (hand hold the dope through the referral process) and then wait for notification for the Oby Gyn appointment so I can see the scans and the report.

This is plan B if the Oncologist and Satan decide to be an ass.
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He's probably just jerk who doesn't care about being a doctor once he walks out of the office (early)! I shouldn't say that, maybe something else was going on? But his patients should be taken care of properly!! At least you have a plan B!
 
Patience my dears. He is just human like the rest of us.
He may have troubles at home that require his attention to the exclusion of all else.
It is easy to blame someone for not caring but is it right to blame without knowing?
 
I need intenstive prayer support from my fellow Brother and Sister Payer Warriors as Satan is blocking the communication between the Oncologist and myself.

He has been trying all day to ring my mobile phone for my consultation.
His receptionist says that it rings till it gets to the answering service.
My phone has shown no missed or dropped calls and I have had two calls from a lady today about pest spraying for the house so calls can go to my phone.

Satan does not want me to see or get these results.

If this phone thing can't be worked out I'm going to ask him to e-mail me the reports and or a summary.
 
So here is the DRUM on my condition.

Left side wall, ligaments and lymph nodes - NED - No evidence of disease..
Paraaortic lymph nodes - NED.
1 cm left groin lymphatic disease - NED
Bone met on the right hip - no growth - stable.
The primary cervical lesion measured 9.6 cms is now 4.1 cms!!!

The new battle is a new 5 cm lesion on the right side wall.

There are no other mets anywhere else in my body.

The Oncologist is going to e-mail his summary of the imaging report to get around the issues the Imaging facility has with issuing patients reports.

Praise God almighty and my band of prayer warriors!
 
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God gave you the brains and drive to do the homework to find the right protocols to fight your battle! Praise God! WOW!! I feel relief! You, through our good Lord, are beating this evil!! I pray that as you take on the fight against the 5cm lesion that this Oncologist steps up to provide you all the help you need from him!! Prayer, your hard work, and diligence have worked!!🙏☺️🙏
 
Thank you all my prayer warrior brothers and sisters!

It's an amazing, incredible result.
And I give all praise to Jesus the Most High.

Not only was the Oncologist laughing for much of the phone consult but he said that the Imaging facility that did my imaging was amazed as well and said as much in their report.
This is the same Imaging facility I got my last PET scan at.

Myself I was so relieved that there were no more bone mets at all and that one on my hip stayed still and hadn't grown.
THAT was a HUGE weight off my shoulders.


The Powerful Almighty pushed back all of Satan's obstacles and allowed the call to be made.
The Oncologist told me the more trouble he got trying to ring me the more he tried to push back.
He told me he's an extremely stubborn man!
Hhahahah..and I'm pig headed and stubborn myself.

I told him about the modified Tippen's protocol and a modified Jane's protocol (starving cancer) and a whole lot of sups because these were the only treatments I used after I finished with the radiation.

So, now about the battle ahead...
The Oncologist has offered me more external beam radiation to zap the new 5 cm lesion.
It's further away from my intestines than the primary lesion which was plonked right in the middle of them.
He and his team have to take the imaging and do mapping of the new disease and make a plan.
So, at the moment he has no idea how many treatments I would require IF I chose to have radiation again.
And that is the thing. He told me I have the choice to accept the radiation treatment or not and he would support me either way.

I have to clean up my diet that's for sure.
I was starting to eat junk again and that showed in the new 5 cm lesion.
No MORE JUNK FOOD!
I'm going to start juicing again and I'm going to have to quit sugar, meat and dairy and anything that tastes good.

I think I may have found a new weapon in the arsenal but more about that later.
 
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